Today, I lost a good friend of mine, The Office on NBC. I know it is just a television show but television shows have been my best friend when I was depressed and shut in, evenings and weekends, and forced to grin and bear it from 8:30 to 4:30. The Office helped me cope with the mundane daily life I lived at my workplace because it helped me see the humour in my everyday life. After all the heartache and nights sobbing myself to sleep, it was nice to find comedy and laughter in my days again. And I don’t know, if I would have had that perspective without seeing Jim pranking Dwight, Creed being creepy or Andy being a Loser – oh Nard Dog or staring in awkward awe and adoration of the one and only Michael Scott. It brought a light in to my life when I desperately needed one, as did many other television shows.
Since, I was slapped in the face by a boy who I tried to kiss in kindergarten carpool, love has not been kind during my quest for a soul mate. I have been looking all my life for someone to be my side and come home to who would make me laugh, bring light to dark times and make me think in a way that I never would have. I have never found that in another human being, there were times when my eyes fooled me but nope, it has never appeared in the form of a man. But it has been there on a screen with me since Sesame Street. A screen that has made me laugh, distracted me from depression and took me places that financially I was never allowed to go when I was younger but encouraged me to venture to when I was able. Television has been my other half for as long as I can remember. And to some with significant others, children and active social lives, it might seem quite pathetic. Trust me, I feel that sometimes too. I desperately want what you have but it has never found me and in my quest for it I have come up so broken. So, why not marry myself to something that has never wavered in my life(as long as the bills were paid), television?
I dug myself in debt and worked my way through college to work in television. But the journey to leave all who I love and know behind to go after a television career has been daunting emotionally and financially. The fact is, I am not where I need or want to be to pursue my dream and I need to step up and do something about that because I am ready to take the next step with my boyfriend, television.