Jump in

FullSizeRenderI am exhausted in the most content way. I spent the day doing something that is not a normal Andrea thing to do, bouncing at an Extreme Trampoline Park. For someone as prone to injury as myself, this was kind of a terrifying experience. But the motto of the last year has been to throw myself into all the experience that fly my way, so I jumped in (haha get it) and I am so glad I did because it was SO MUCH FUN!

The whole sweaty, bouncy day filled with laughter is kind of representative of the past year I have had. I have always been scared and worried about failing and getting hurt and that has lead me to hold back from doing like A LOT OF COOL SHIT in my life.  Last year, it kind of clicked with me that every time I had just let go and took on adventure, I had pretty rad experiences. I traveled Europe with a whole bunch of strangers that I grew so close with and had so many adventures with. I went to New York City, Washington DC and Boston by myself and had such cool experiences. I decided to go to improv shows and classes, I started being in shows, found a way to be brave enough to sing in front of people and so many other amazing experience. I did all that stuff because I threw caution to the wind and jumped in. And truth be told, for that majority of my life that has not been my personality at all.

But after years of being a scaredy-cat and missing out on so much, I am ready to experience what this life I have been given has to offer and not run away and hide anymore.  I want to try stuff because that is where the best side of myself lives. She lives in the adventures, creative production and performing. She lives in the moment and she is a badass bitch. This is who I am working to be like ALL THE TIME and I am lucky enough to be a part of a community that inspires and helps me bring her to life.

During this last Kinkonaut’s season I have learned so much from the coaches, the classes and the people I am lucky enough to play with. Every time I watched a show I took notes that have been gems from so many talented players I got to see every show week. I got to learn from gifted and wise guest instructors. And I got the opportunity to perform and that has helped me grow so much. I have been accepted by a community of people that are so diverse and talented and every time I am in their presence I feel so lucky to be there. I am so blessed to call these people my friends. This show season has given me so much; I found my voice, I am so much more confident and I am opening up to people after being a loner for far too long – I have found my tribe. I feel incredibly humbled and grateful to be a part of such a fun, supportive, innovative and dynamic community and I am so excited for our summer adventures and all the creative rainbows and fireworks that lie in the show season ahead. Thank you for a fantastic season Kinkonaut’s!

Now… I … Sleep


15 minutes

IMG_3287Guys I am sporting a major case of the feel-goods right now. I am floating around in a state of bliss because of 15 minutes. 15 minutes of improvised stories and songs and joy pouring out of pores of people who have become very dear to me. 15 minutes of truly living contently in a moment. These 15 minutes were a relief to my system that has been worn down by too many personal and professionals stresses these days.  15 minutes took me away from it all.

Tonight my improv heroes Notorious were playing at Café Koi and they were kind enough to let the Kinkonaut’s STU group open. We heard about the opportunity last minute and due to scheduling clusterfucks we were unable to practice until today, the day of the show. I was bit nervous that we had no idea what we were doing, other than it being musical and improvised. But thanks to the leadership of one of our own (my good friend, Michael Harvey), the bravery of the small group of eager improvisers (Alex, Linnea, Mike and myself) and the last minute help of the gracious Kinkonaut Super God, Jason Lewis, we were able to come up with a mini-STUsical the Musical. This is something Linnea and I had talked about wanting to try since like day one of STU in September and to be opening for Notorious was icing on that dream cake. We spent 2+ hours practicing a format and making up songs over and over again and it was super fun and came together much more smoothly than I had thought it would.

Café Koi is an interesting performance space. The stage is tiny and the crowd is a mixture of improv fans and people just looking to enjoy the delicious Asian fusion food. It tends to get loud in there and you have to be very loud and make your presence known on stage to manage the crowd. Tonight the place was packed, as it usually is for most Notorious Shows, and my nerves were there but they were not beating the bubbling exciting of doing something I had wanted to do for a while now.

And then we got our 15 minutes… and we were all in that moment and present and we got the great location suggestion of the Calgary Tower and then, as far as I am concerned… magic happened. Words will never really ever fully clarify the feeling you get when you are doing that one thing that you love to do above anything else.  However, I can tell you that it has been 3 hours since that 15 minutes and I am still grinning like an idiot.

Life can be hard and filled with bullshit but if you find YOUR thing, all it will take is 15 minutes of doing that thing to bring you back to the reason you get up every morning and go on. 15 minutes reminded me why I am just so lucky to be here… lucky to be me.